The Burn is Real

We celebrated Alicia’s birthday yesterday with a four hour river adventure and my calves are BURNT. Like, hurts to walk, ankles are swollen, burnt. Which has never happened before. That’s not true, it probably has, but OUCH.

I also lost my flip flops trying to crawl out of the river at the end so that was fun. Luckily they were 2 dollar Old Navy flip flops so really, who cares.

I took a pretty glorious nap afterwards and then we all met back up for a BBQ at Alicia and Nate’s place. I did a lot of Taylor Swift singing and dancing. And I drank a lot of soda without realizing and was so disgusted with myself when I did realize that I quit drinking all together.

On a completely different note, my bangs are in this really awful stage in length right now that I don’t know how to style. I have a hair appointment Tuesday but I think I may want to start growing them out but someone needs to fix them ASAP. They are gross.

Today’s struggle though: Do I go to Bed Bath & Beyond for new sheets or do I keep putting it off and continue to have only one set. Important things.

superseventies:

Jerry Hall photographed by Antonio Lopez, 1974

superseventies:

Jerry Hall photographed by Antonio Lopez, 1974

Sorry I keep disappearing for weeks at a time. I am here, just lurking in the background.
We got our Save The Dates out - so that is one less thing. But now I am heavily stressed out by flowers. I feel like I had no trouble getting in touch with vendors when this planning process started. Now, it’s as if every time I try to contact a florist or makeup artist I am ignored. I am giving everyone the benefit of the doubt because it is summer aka wedding season so I am sure they are busy but come on. This girl needs flowers and a hairdo!
On Sunday we painted our guest room in preparation for my parents coming to town today. I got about 1/2 way through before we realized the previous homeowners had actually put wallpaper on this walls and it was bubbling off and looking terrible in some spots. We got really annoyed, stopped painting and ate some lunch and ultimately decided to just keep going. Only the one wall looked bad and it was behind the door so we figured we could get away with it for a few months and when we had time, rip down the wallpaper and do that wall over. When we finished, we let the paint try and watched some tv and had some dinner. When I went back in to check on the paint, it was as if the wallpaper had never happened. It was very bizarre, but it had dried flat. Talk about relieved! Though we do need to touch it up some but boy was I happy.
 Anyway, so my parents are headed to our house this afternoon to spend the night. They haven’t seen the place since we came with the realtor the day we put in an offer and I like to think we have improved it for the better since then. They are bringing us my bed from their house among about a million other things since they moved and downsized so it will sort of be like Christmas! Except with a bunch of old stuff from my parents house. We moved our current bed frame into the guest room last night so we can put the new one in our room, so we slept on the mattress on our bedroom floor last night. Which made me feel like a college aged boy and caused me to get no sleep but oh well. 
Happy Tuesday!

Sorry I keep disappearing for weeks at a time. I am here, just lurking in the background.

We got our Save The Dates out - so that is one less thing. But now I am heavily stressed out by flowers. I feel like I had no trouble getting in touch with vendors when this planning process started. Now, it’s as if every time I try to contact a florist or makeup artist I am ignored. I am giving everyone the benefit of the doubt because it is summer aka wedding season so I am sure they are busy but come on. This girl needs flowers and a hairdo!

On Sunday we painted our guest room in preparation for my parents coming to town today. I got about 1/2 way through before we realized the previous homeowners had actually put wallpaper on this walls and it was bubbling off and looking terrible in some spots. We got really annoyed, stopped painting and ate some lunch and ultimately decided to just keep going. Only the one wall looked bad and it was behind the door so we figured we could get away with it for a few months and when we had time, rip down the wallpaper and do that wall over. When we finished, we let the paint try and watched some tv and had some dinner. When I went back in to check on the paint, it was as if the wallpaper had never happened. It was very bizarre, but it had dried flat. Talk about relieved! Though we do need to touch it up some but boy was I happy.

 Anyway, so my parents are headed to our house this afternoon to spend the night. They haven’t seen the place since we came with the realtor the day we put in an offer and I like to think we have improved it for the better since then. They are bringing us my bed from their house among about a million other things since they moved and downsized so it will sort of be like Christmas! Except with a bunch of old stuff from my parents house. We moved our current bed frame into the guest room last night so we can put the new one in our room, so we slept on the mattress on our bedroom floor last night. Which made me feel like a college aged boy and caused me to get no sleep but oh well. 

Happy Tuesday!

Achieving Goals

Striving for something has always been a weird thing for me. When I look back at everything I have accomplished in my early adulthood, there is a good bit to be proud of. I moved out of my parents house at 18 and managed to stay on my feet and not have to move back in at any point, I made a new life in a totally new state and started from scratch basically, I made it through college on time and received my degree, and I had a job right out of college using said degree. Albeit a job I ended up hating about after…..a week, but I still worked my butt off and made sure I had one. And when that one didn’t work out, I had another lined up to try. And when that one folded and I found myself unemployed, I did a lot of crying and then i made it my one and only goal to not stay this way long and found myself a new job within two weeks. And I bought a house, which is another goal I didn’t think I would ever realistically figure out.

But at the same time, I sometimes look at my life in the present and think that I accomplished nothing. That I am 25 and what am I even doing? I know that isn’t true, and I know I am “doing” lots of things, but one thing I dislike about myself is what I feel is a lack of ambition to try anything new. 

I don’t think I am necessarily alone in this feeling, but when I see something that I would like to be able to do, I immediately think about how long it may take, the steps and learning it would take to get there, and I throw in the towel before I even start. And I am not proud of that mentality. Maybe I’d like to try rock climbing or weaving or a blog that has substance and an interested following. I have a laundry list of things I want to try and things I would like to achieve, but I am part stubborn and part lazy and overall it keeps me stuck.

I’d love to know how to get out of this rut. How to be a person who is driven and motivated and not afraid to just give something a try. But I often think that at 25 I am set in my ways. And then I think YOU ARE ONLY 25 YOU HAVE FOREVER TO CHANGE AND GET OFF YOUR ASS AND DO and it gives me hope. 

It reminds that I don’t have to achieve everything in my life all at once and all right now. I am much younger than I let myself believe I am. And I am exactly where I should be give or take a few accomplishments. Rome wasn’t built in a day as they say and if I keep pushing myself just a little bit more each day towards the person I’d like to be, I don’t think I will have anything to worry about except the curveballs. 

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DOG DAYS

July 23?!??!? Already!? When did THAT happen? July has been a good month so far.

There hasn’t been much going on, the last few days. But I suppose that can be good. We come and go from work, finalized and ordered our save the dates in between marathoning Six Feet Under. Rilo has become obsessed with me and sleeps on or beside me any chance she gets. And we’ve been, as you know, decorating and redecorating slowly but surely.

But these are good days. It is hot and disgusting outside but I’ve felt worse. The way summer feels here is always a little nostalgic for me since I first moved here during the summer. It’s a comfortable feeling, one that I don’t mind sticking with me as long as live here. Even if I am mostly sticky and frizzy while feeling it. 

Things will probably stay pretty low key for the remainder of the summer. There are talks of a “grill off kill off” between friends and one last trip to the beach house. Every summer I say I am going to go there more and then I remember that it is 6 hours total in a car to do so and I only go a few times. Oh well. But so long as we have a few more cook outs, I will be satisfied with summer 2k14. We’ll probably spend another entire paychecks worth of money on house stuff before summer comes to a close. I think I had 4 cheeseburgers last week alone. I am going to fit into my wedding dress. It’s fine.

Why can’t all year long be as carefree and endless as the days of summer? Let’s keep that mentality going 365. I think that covers it. Time to go to the dentist -__-